Recently, I’ve been a bit difficult to reach as I’ve decided to move away from Facebook except for the occasional post or update to my Illustration page, and as I continue to work as a preparator for several galleries and a workshop facilitator for a few different community groups. I am keeping busy (understatement) but I would like to acknowledge any frustrations you may have had trying to reach me. I am still very active on Instagram and you can always email, text or contact me via my website contact form!
You may have noticed that I have begun removing the sections in my online bios that relate to my being a musician. Over the past 2 years, I have struggled to come to terms with my ever decreasing ability to hear. While I have always identified as “Hearing Impaired” (which I no longer do), I have found new agency by identifying as Hard Of Hearing since dedicating myself to ASL studies at VCC and choosing to go voice-off when possible. Should I pass you on the street and not respond – please don’t take it personally. I can’t hear you! If you want my attention, please simply tap my shoulder or touch my arm to get my attention. This kind of touching is completely acceptable to me and prefered over an angry smack on the back or yelling in my face -_-
I miss music, but I am more put out by my self-directed abuse for not being able to hear. It is not a shame. I am still Kay and I am more able than ever each time I stop myself from apologizing for not being able to hear. I am trying not to work myself to exhaustion to make it easier for other folks who rely solely on audible queues and communication. It frustrates many people, but those who have taken it all in stride have shown themselves to be my allies and people with whom I wish to associate.
Thanks for reading! Here’s an adapted recipe (video at 1.25 speed) for Black Bean Brownies from my favourite cookbook author, Julie Van Rosendaal. Can’t sign – no worries. I’ve added captions for you. 🙂 Still struggling to understand? Pick up a copy of Julie’s book “Spilling the Beans : Cooking And Baking With Beans Every Day”.
This fall, I took to heart this advice that really resonated with me as an artist who often feels overwhelmed and dissatisfied with the amount of work I’m able to produce, show and share throughout the year. While I could never be called unmotivated and I really love the direction that my career as a preparator and workshop facilitator has taken me, the chance to sit down and be focused on my work is a rare opportunity indeed.
So, I decided to take part in this year’s internet event: #inktober2017. With a list of daily prompts and my set of rules, I am proud to share all 31 days of work.
My own rules were as followed:
Limit yourself to 1 hour.
Plan nothing and respond only to the prompt.
Do not fear mistakes – not everything will turn out and that is ok.
I’m proud to be leading a series of process-based art workshops for children 12 and under at ArtStarts starting this summer. What started as an idea last year in the minds of the gallery team; Juliana, Krista and my own, became a reality this past weekend at my first ArtStarts Explores workshop. I chose a topic near and dear to my heart for my first event; mark making.
I’m really looking forward to challenging people when they come into the space for the workshops. My goal is have all of my participants try something for the sake of exploration without the need to create “something good”. I don’t want anyone to make something to take home so I am really pushing people to try to practice making mistakes or to explore the possibilities of different materials and techniques. Other than taking photographs, I really want the participants to go away with an experience and a new set of creative tools rather than another fridge-worthy art and/or craft. This is not to say that someone couldn’t come up with something truly epic and worthy of being archived, but I am trying to encourage an environment where the act of trying and potentially failing is a worthwhile experiment and experience. I plan on saying
“what would happen if you ripped that now?” quite a bit.
Know someone under the age of 12? Tell them to join me on Saturdays. The events are free (but donations are welcome).
ArtStarts in Schools is located at 808 Richards Street, Vancouver, BC, V6B 3A7, Canada
ArtStarts Explores is a hands-on drop-in workshop series for creative and adventurous families held from 11am to 12pm every Saturday (except the last Saturday of each month, when we present ArtStarts on Saturdays events). Explore creativity with your family through hands-on investigations and discover a wide variety of materials and artistic mediums. These process-based explorations invite families to experiment together through observing, touching, drawing, moving, assembling and listening to ignite their creative learning. Ages 12 and under. Free! Donations welcome.
I’m stoked to be hosting these voice-off events starting this summer as a volunteer for Queer ASL. I am excited for the opportunity to host another place where students can practice their ASL in a safe, inclusive and accessible space.
When drawing on the subject of mental health, I find myself drawn to the imagery of “masks” and the importance of appearance. This drive to hide away our pain and struggle behind closed doors or the discomfort we are unwilling to wade through so that we do not impose on others, it leads to greater problems.
In Get Your Game Face On, I wanted to show how those who suffer may be simultaneously the ones who ask for the mask, unwilling or unable to face a world that values photoshopped perfection and stock photography. And those who hand us the mask, they are also guilty of both handing it over with a relieved sigh, unwilling to put in the hard time to be compassionate and to build understanding, and perpetuating the belief that feeling and personal struggles are something to be handled in private behind closed doors.
I used to think that taking medicine for depression was akin to being held hostage. That if I took pills to be “happy” that I was admitting defeat.
There is a place for medication. I ultimately took antidepressants for 2 years while I worked hard at CBT to regain balance in my life. I am so lucky that I had access to a medical professional who listened and believed my struggles, and that I was able to afford the medicine that was ultimately prescribed to me. But I fought. I fought for a lot longer than I probably should have because I had come to associate drugs with weakness. The negative thoughts that swirled in my brain told me that I was too smart, too successful, too…healthy to be depressed and that I didn’t deserve medicine. I would make up excuses that there were “sicker” people than me and therefore, medicine was not a solution for “someone like me”. Trapped in my brain, I thought that medicine was admitting defeat. I had become so arrogant and sick that to admit that I was sick became my ultimate enemy.
But admitting that depression was BEATING me was exactly what I needed to admit. Medicine wasn’t a cross to bear but rather a pair of water wings to stay afloat; a shovel to fill in the hole in which we were previously stuck; a mobility device to remain standing; a hearing aid to amplify reasonable words; a key to unlock shackles – simply a tool to level the playing field. Medicine doesn’t hold us hostage, we hold ourselves hostage.
Drop by Gallery Gachet to see some of the amazing artists as part of Gallery Gachet’s Fundraising Auction, or just head to the auction website and bid like the wind. There are some pieces there that are blowing my mind.
Why is Gallery Gachet fundraising?
Gallery Gachet learned in September last year that after twenty-one years of receiving core funding from the Provincial Ministry of Health their contract with the Vancouver Coastal Health Authority is being severed. The financial cut amounts to half of the organization’s overall budget, and represents the majority of wage and operational resources.
A press release issued by VCH on September 3rd indicated that contracts in the Downtown Eastside “without a strong health mandate” or who are offering “stand-alone services that lack formal connections to the health care system are unlikely to be renewed”. At a meeting with VCH on Wednesday, September 2nd, it was made clear that Gallery Gachet’s funding would not be renewed. The decision to remove funding from the Gallery Gachet, made by VCH management, cited the Society’s role as not fitting with the “clinical” services that will become the focus for the Downtown Eastside neighbourhood. The organization’s relationship to a health mandate, and/or to the health care system, was not addressed.
Gallery Gachet is a 23-year old, collectively-run society with genuinely peer-based participation in its programming through to its governance. In the largely drop-in, exhibition and studio space they manage public access annually to exhibitions related to mental health and education, in addition to providing workshops, talks, symposia, projects and other events for the Downtown Eastside neighbourhood and within the broader mental health community. They facilitate a volunteer program that currently involves over fifty participants on a weekly basis. These volunteers include clients accessing Vancouver Community Mental Health Services, Therapeutic Volunteer Program (TVP). Many of the participants are on permanent disability assistance.
Gallery Gachet works in robust collaboration with a number of organizational partners to deliver free, low-barrier services. They amplify their community members’ voices and expression in wider mental health and art networks. Their mandate supports artistic development as a means to achieve social, cultural and economic justice and supports the wellness of, and the elimination of discrimination against, people marginalized by their mental health, trauma and/or abuse experience. They promote the critical function of art and culture in the building of a healthy society. The space provides essential skills development, peer support, referrals, community engagement and a healthy, non-hierarchal environment that provides both alternative and preventative mental health care. They support each other’s engagement, analysis and capacity to provide feedback on an ongoing basis, to the conditions of that care.
For more information or to learn more about supporting the Gallery Gachet: www.gachet.org | firstname.lastname@example.org | 604 687 2468
For media inquiries please contact:
Cecily Nicholson, Administrator 604 339 3234
Pierre Leichner, Collective Member 604 709 8612
Bruce Ray, Board of Directors 604 687 2468
vancounicorn, hard-of-hearing, queer, multidisciplinary artist, illustrator & creative problem solver!